at times i rly wonder if i rly do understand myself and what i truly want.. after wdvr tht hpned, i don't believe in wdvr i do anymore. am i doing it for myself or am i doing it just to satisfy others' expectations? i don't even know wht i feel anymore..
ppl often ask me "wht do you feel bout this?" ugh i hv no idea wht to answer honestly. i'm afraid my honest opinions will often hurt ppl while putting up a fake front will just make me appear plastic. it's so difficult being a good fren nowadays.. sigh..
sometimes i get so weird
i even freak myself out
i laughed myself to sleep
it's my lullaby
sometimes i drive so fast
just to feel the danger
i wanna scream
it makes me feel alive
is it enough to love
is it enough to breathe
somebody rip my heart out
and leave me here to bleed
is it enough to die
somebody save my life
i'd rather be anything but ordinary please
i'd rather be anything but ordinary please
(anything but ordinary - avril lavigne)
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